Have you heard of the Ketogenic Diet? Well, it is a way of eating that I have come to know very well. It has helped me lose a total of 16 pounds so far this summer! I may, or may not have gained a few back… but let’s just stay on the bright side here.
It was not until I got a horrible ear infection that I went to see a doctor, just for him to nicely point the conversation in the direction of…. my weight at the time. [ Dun, dun, chicken-fried thunder thighs ] Suddenly, I was being spoken to like someone who was no longer human or a person who has never been healthy. Ugh, my ear ache was not the only thing making me nauseous. I died inside.
But, it was the kick in the butt that I needed.
Life happened. Food happened. Lack of motivation and lack of time took its evil toll on me. Then, a friend at church was getting noticeably thinner and I HAD to know what he was doing. He mentioned this diet and how it was “high in fat,” and I thought to myself— this guy is crazy, is he kidding me? Once I got home, I began my research and decided that I was going to give this a shot, and long nights of reading articles and watching YouTube videos were born.
I could sit here and break down this diet and define it for you but I have decided not to. Because I believe that we are all built differently and are on different paths in our lives. What works for me, might not work for you. What I think is attractive might not ruffle your feathers. You may already know about this diet and do not agree with it. That is totally understandable and if you strongly believe it is not the way to go, please let me know why. Regardless, I wish you the best on your journey, whatever situation you are in.
Here are some struggles (silent screams) that taunt me. Maybe you agree with some of these or know someone who might currently be haunted by these.
Top 5 annoyances (loud whispers) that came with my weight gain:
- The fitting room became my enemy.
- I thought cardigans were my best friend, even when it was super hot outside.
- I no longer could find a comfortable bra. Ironically, I found sports bras fit the best.
- People treated me differently.
- I started to doubt myself more often.
Reasons why these 5 things no longer bring me down:
- (The fitting room became my enemy.) So what the clothes do not fit, “like they used to!” Let’s go find some that do. I am still beautiful, worthy and capable of looking fabulous. It is not my fault that these clothes were not made for my body type. I am a work in progress, and I should respect myself enough to accept the skin I am in. Confidence is welcomed and admired, listening to someone constantly talk about why they are ugly, is just a bummer. (Apologies to everyone who had to listen to me ramble on and on.)
- (I thought cardigans were my best friend, even when it was super hot outside.) How silly of me, really. I was making myself suffer because I was letting the world tell me that my arms were too flabby and unworthy of fresh air. Sweaty armpits do not feel or smell good, stop doing that to yourself!
- (I no longer could find a comfortable bra. Ironically, I found sports bras fit the best.) Hey, at least you are not being poked by a painful underwire and are ready for a workout at any moment. Do not sweat it, or do. Are other women like you or heavier set, just letting things hang out? Go ask them where they shop, they are thinking and feeling human beings just like you. Stop shaming yourself. **Really though, I am looking for bras, help a sister out.
- (People treat me differently.) Okay listen, everyone is fighting a battle within themselves. Sometimes they may use you to build themselves up but do not take it personally. We all have an idea of who or what we want to be like. Do you want to be a judgemental or a close-minded person? No? Then do not return the hate, or allow yourself to receive it! Treat yourself, and walk away with a clear conscience. [ insert hair flip here ]
- (I started to doubt myself more often.) At the end of the day, a happy person is more desirable to be around. Do not rob yourself or others of experiences because you feel less than. The people in your life love you and want to enjoy their time with you, not the you that is ashamed of yourself. So start going to bed feeling grateful for living your life, not wishing that you had chosen to do so.
My hopes are that these silent screams will be heard and openly discussed. I know that I kept these thoughts to myself and it only allowed me to add more negative thoughts to the pile until I stopped trying to love myself. Also, I was ashamed that I did not ever consider these things until I got into this situation. It stung a little when I thought about how rude or insensitively hurtful I had been towards others in the past. Well, never again. [Shame on me that I did not see it sooner.]
Tonight, I want to leave you with a recipe I have put together. It is Keto-friendly and also gluten-free. Trust me, it is NOT one of those things that just looks good and tastes disgusting in real life. Try it, or share it with someone who might enjoy it. Whether you choose to or not, I just want to encourage you to be kind to yourself and love the skin you are in today.
Berry-licious Pie with a Coconut flour Crust
Filling
2 lbs strawberries, blueberries
1/2 cup erithrytol sweetener (I used this one, Erythritol Granules by Anthony’s)
3 oz sugar-free strawberry jello mix
1 cup water
Crust
1/2 cup butter (I used unsalted Kerrygold butter)
2 eggs
1/4 cup erithrytol sweetener
1/4 teaspoon salt
3/4 cup coconut flour (sifted)
Procedure
1. Combine crust ingredients, roll into a ball and flatten it upon the pan. Bake at 350 for 12 mins. Set aside to cool.
2. Bring the water and erithrytol sweetener to a boil in a pot, turn off the heat then pour in the jello mix and stir until it all comes together.
3. Slice the strawberries however you like and place them on the crust, along with the blueberries. Pour the mixture over the berries within the crust, cover it and put it in the fridge to set for 4 hours. Enjoy! Add whipped cream and/or ice-cream if you wish!
Hope I brought some relevant screams to life, if you have any thoughts to share, please continue the conversation! Thank you for reading.
Love, Ashley.
Silent Screams, Heard 