Tag: courage

Whoever is listening, thank you!

I have finally conjured up the courage to launch this blog and get it running. Silent Screams, Heard has always been an idea I have kept locked up in a filing cabinet with all my other thoughts. To be super honest, I am still searching for a clear direction and plan to create this space into exactly what I want it to be. [ But, hello Ashley, these things do not just appear and grow within thin air. ] So here I am. And yay for me, here you are! Thank you.

This first silent scream derives from, da da da-da, my INSECURITY.

There, I said it. Okay, now that you have read it, there is no turning back now.

This scares me, putting myself “out there” still makes me want to vomit. My guts are in a knot and I want to close the screen to my Mac and sip on some tea in the corner of my sectional sofa, where I always sit.

My first act of bravery was when I created an Instagram account for my writing, https://www.instagram.com/slient_screams_heard/. I do not know exactly what came over me, but I did it and it still exists today. Let me tell you a secret, I once had a full poetry book manuscript typed up and ready to go once, 10 years ago, but because I was so afraid, I deleted it. Perhaps, sharing words and poetry on a platform designed for gorgeous photographs just made more sense, (insert sarcastic chuckle here) it did to me somehow anyway. Also, I created this blog and paid for its theme, three years ago and literally let it sit.

This is a HUGE turning point here people!

My personal struggle with being an Instagram writer has to do with the friends I know in real-life who follow my account. Knowing that they are there has hindered my willingness to be fearlessly creative and daring. I have found myself playing things safe and I am now kicking myself in the bottom and challenging myself to rise above my insecurities so that I can hopefully inspire at least one person to do the same. Come on one person, whoever you are, please tell me you actually exist on the other side of this screen!

What is my point? Well, hopefully you have chuckled at me at least once while reading and asked yourself what I was waiting for. Well, my turn. What are YOU waiting for? Is there something keeping you from going after what you want? (Comment if you are feeling brave or wish to share what helped you rise above your fear.)

So for now, I leave you with a promise that I will be humanly open and honest with you as I work to battle my insecurities, for all to see. I plan to post once a week, every Friday night. (Keep me accountable, if no one is reading, then I pray this blog does not sit for another 3 years.)

Please feel free to email me at WhereScreamsareHeard@gmail.com if you wish to discuss anything that is nagging at you privately, or comment on this post with topics or issues you would like to be discussed!

Love, Ashley.